*Trigger warning for depression and suicidal thoughts*
Two years ago around this time of year I realized that my mental health issues were more than just seasonal blues. Since then, there have been millions of questions I’ve asked, blame I’ve thrown at myself and others, and choices made to better understand and work with my illness. Hormonal contraceptives are one suspected factor of my anxiety and depression that I simply cannot stop analyzing. These are my own complicated experiences with hormonal birth control, so please remember that everyone is unique, and because of that my experiences will vastly differ from those of someone else. This is not a guide or a “birth control: exposed!”, but a personal reflection.